I woke up with David Bowie’s “Space Oddity” blasting in my brain.
… Ground Control to Major Tom
Ground Control to Major Tom
Take your protein pills and put your helmet on …
Although it doesn’t happen often, this is not the first time my sleep has been interrupted by a song. It happens when I get overwhelmed by all that is going on in my life. Usually, my first reaction is to rationalize the situation. “Oh go back to sleep,” I tell myself, “When this event is over… or that issue is resolved… or whatever… there will be time for (fill in the blank) and for (fill in the blank).”
My internal dialogue continues… “But what I’ve been doing is necessary… It is important… I have responsibilities…”
And yes, this is true. Good works are necessary. It is important to fulfill obligations. Living up to responsibilities is what adults do. But at this stage of my life, is it time to reassess what this involves? Is it time to take on less?
The singing has stopped, and a whispering voice has taken David Bowie’s place … it suggests that maybe I should consider making a few adjustments. Truth be told, the voice inside my head is not whispering… it is screaming at me… quite stridently. It is not suggesting, it resolutely maintains that I am not behaving in the most necessary, important, and responsible way. The voice insists that I allow for more unhurried, unstructured time in my life.
It urges me to think about spending more time with my family and long-time friends. It asks why I don’t carve out more time for writing, painting, cooking healthy meals, and exercising more. It tells me I need to do what matters most to me AND to those I love.
My priorities seem to be askew… and no one but me has caused the imbalance. I like being involved.. it’s a good thing, but I need to set limits. I guess I’ve come to a fork in the road.
It’s time to consider changing my orbit.
… This is Major Tom to Ground Control
I’m stepping through the door
And I’m floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today …
Do you ever feel like you’ve lost your bearings?
… Far above the world
Planet Earth is blue
And there’s nothing I can do …
Hm-m-m-m-m-m-m. I will celebrate my 65th birthday in a few weeks… The time has come for me to listen, trust, and heed the voice in my head.
… I’m feeling very still
And I think my spaceship knows which way to go …
The time has come for some gentle changes in my life.